Wednesday, February 13, 2013 | justanothermother's Blog

Today was a new day.  Started off real quiet, didn't do much at all except be a couch potato.  Then I got two phone calls, and the mood was set.  All the bothersome things that have been weighing heavy on me lately were stirred up all over again. 

Instead of sitting there and stewing, I got up, got dressed and went outside.  We are the last house on an old country dirt road, absolutely no civilization up past us, except for when the well tenders are up at the gas wells.  Once outside, I filled my corn jug, and went out to put it out for my deer.  I have a feeding trough, and they come down every evening after dark and eat it up.  I put my mule (UTV) in the shed, and just walked quietly back to the house.  It began to snow, lightly at first, then the flakes got as big as fifty cent pieces.  I raised my face towards the heavens, and as each flake hit my face, I felt as if the Lord was in a way, washing all the hurt away, one flake at a time.  I smiled my 'Thank You' , and continued my walk to the house. 

My days back in this hollow are often more rewarding than anyone could possibly ever imagine.  I enjoy the little things in life.....hanging my clothes outside in the sunshine to dry, planting flowers in my old tractor tire, and even doing all the weed eating on our place, gives me a certain sense of being closer to God.   I never thought that at this time in our lives, we would have a home that is paid for, and a piece of ground, that we could call our own.  We always seemed to struggle while we were younger and raising our children.  But, what was once our hunting cabin back in the woods, has become our little retirement home.  It is just big enough for the two of us to be comfortable, but big enough for us to separate from each other when the need arises. 

Although at times, I don't feel worthy of anything from God, I know that what we have now, we have because he smiled on us when we weren't looking.  I know that if I just keep walking in the direction I am going, that all this mess will work out in the end.  I just have to be patient, and wait for God's timing, not mine.

JAM